All I can see right now is black. I'm in total hell. I can not find the light. I think it's because I'm finally including negative, so it feels like that's all there is. But man it's thick and I'm barely making it out alive. I can barely leave my house. And I'm so beyond bored, but it's almost like I have no choice but to stay in this nothingness. And I'm trying to find my faith here. I'm trying to find my freedom. But wow, I'm really in the depths this time. And I know I've been here before but every time it feels brand new. You just keep spiraling through the same places, but as a new person. I will continue to find my way out of this prison and into my heart. I will never ever give up this fight.